Day 2

To say yesterday went less well then planned would be somewhat of an understatement. I did less than very little of anything at all productive. Today has so far been a similar affair although, being in an optimistic frame of mind, I will say the day if not over yet. I've been told that it takes 28 days to brake old habits or start new ones, this is all very well and good but means very little unless you start a first day. Having said that I have made my first sale of a painting. Yes it was to a friend But still even if he did feel compelled to buy it in order not to hurt my feelings it was still a sale none the less. I do see this as a pretty good achievement and it has, if nothing else, encouraged me to paint some more.

On another note I haven't yet talked much about smoking. As an adamant smoker I have done the required amount of self delusion and am mostly convinced that it is a choice I made. <delusion> I'm pretty sure that I'm not addicted and my failed attempts at quitting were not really that at all because I oviously chose to go back to smoking each time. Its nothing to do with me being weak I simply smoke because I like to be able to get away for a moment or two and clear my mind or indulge in quiet thought. Although I know smoking is lethal I am mostly desensitized to the warning on the packs and don't often think about the dangers of my habit. smoking kills, but it won't kill me </delusion>

But That's enough about all that I think I'm going to go mow the lawn. more importantly I'm going to start learning french at the same time.